holding steady.™

i think i want my website to have a “best quotes of the x-files” section.

it’ll be like middle school, where i created a purpose-less science project having something to do with television commercials, so that i could tape and watch HOURS of the x-files reruns on fx.

lots and lots of fun is headed my way this summer. but as it turns out, i don’t know that i’ll get around to getting a job.

i get more and more serious as each day passes about my website.

i’ve been “in the process” with this in one attempted incarnation or another for probably about five years. i’m pleased to say it’s finally getting serious.

about a year ago i purchased my own domain name, primarily for use with creating this blog. but recently i’ve been fully planning out the schemes for the political awareness site that has been something of a dream of mine for what seems like forever.

much of the planning is only even possible because of omnigraffle pro, which i’ve come to depend on immeasurably in the past week or so since the sketching out and diagramming has been in full swing. for the record, most, if not all, of the planning happens while i watch all the seasons of the x-files (having a large-capacity dvd player is kind of amazing) in preparation for the movie release on july 25th ohmygodi’msoexcitedireallyjustcan’twait.

i also just got ahold of a bunch of css books, so i plan to code the entire site myself. i expect it will take some time, but i really want to finish it before the summer ends. just in time for graduate school applications…coincidence? i think not.

i’m also going to be studying for the GRE soon, so i may find some way to include that in my frequent blog postings.

and also, as i feel horrible about this, i must include the most recent song of the day.

sia, “buttons“

there’s nothing going on. nothing. at all.

it’s one of those situations where i could bother to take the time to feel sorry for myself. but i’m simply too lazy.

i have started to use earthdesk. i am kind of falling in love with it.

starting in april, i think i’m going to start keeping a running tally of how often certain things happen to me.

i’ll have to make the list first, but i want to engage in some type of infographic recording system of what goes on in my life.

some ideas:

miles traveled via bus, bike, and skateboard

purchases made via amazon.com

times checked balance on bankofamerica.com

phone conversations lasting longer than 15 minutes

(percentage of those with the girlfriend)

showers taken per week (ave)

twitter updates

texts sent per day (ave)

t-shirts purchased

times i personally did the laundry

times the laundry got done

pages written (for school)

emails sent

times quit biting fingernails

pounds gained/lost

alcohol consumed

pictures taken

travels taken

whew…i’m gonna need to organize this crap. probably gonna do that next week sometime. in between doing all the other shit i have to do.

1: i haven’t written any poems in a little while.

2: i don’t think i’ll ever really stop loving The West Wing.

3: i have a tremendous amount of work to accomplish. but i’m going to stay up so that my ex-girlfriend/not-girlfriend who lives three time zones away can call me after going to a slam poetry (?) reading with her ex-ex-girlfriend (and some other people, but that can’t possibly have anything to do with the point).

4: ironically, i am incredibly tired. i should go to sleep. but i can’t. because of all the shit going on in point #3.

5: “to be or not to be is not a question of compromise. either you be or you don’t be.” - golda meir

6: “everything is the same, even if it’s different.” - i ♡ huckabees

7: fuck it, i’m going to bed.

i am supposed to have a test today. i’m probably going to skip it.

i read an article today on going paperless, something i’ve been doing/meaning to do for some time. having a laptop is a sort of invaluable mental ascent in terms of boosting your productivity and organizational capacity.

i am listening to the song “reflections”, off of the newest mae album (singularity)
“Reflections are all we have and when it’s over
Reflections of the path that sends us searching”

i just downloaded yep (for .pdf file archiving/tagging). once i have completed tagging all of my pdfs, next i’m tackling my bookmarks (using webnotehappy). i’ve been keeping track of my tasks with things.

I love poetry.

it’s simple and incredibly intricate.

rather, it’s more emotionally taxing and yet more emotionally accessible than prose.

I love the words, the rhythm, the banter between each syllable.

I like to read it out loud when I’m in the bathroom or lying in bed.

I let each locution roll out of my mouth, like a seven-year old rolling down the hill on his parents’ farm in Virginia somewhere.

Anytown, USA

I like America more than I let on.

that’s why I read poetry. 

it kicks me in my soul.

I like to read poetry because it makes me write poetry. I was reading the Paris Review this morning, as per my usual daily constitutional. I’ve gotten to the point where I read great lines, and mark them down in my journal. 

also, I very much enjoy time-lapse photography. that’s utterly random. 

POL 586 EF, Monday/Wednesday, 12:20-13:35 - Conflicts in the Middle East & Africa

i’m actually a little scared. or maybe not scared, more like neurotically anticipatory. yeah, that sounds about right. this is the end of the first week of my last week as an undergrad. yeah, I have to take french in may, but whatever. doesn’t count. i’m gonna have to grow up at some point in the relatively near future. vomit.

REL 354 D, Tuesday/Thursday, 09:30-10:45 - Religion & Gender

i keep playing this game in my head, where I let myself get too far ahead, caught up in the future, concerned with “what’s coming next?!”

SOC 210 P, Tuesday/Thursday, 11:00-12:15 - Introduction to Social Research

this is the class I have currently checked out of to write this. so fucking dull. I maybe wrote like…five lines of notes. but I did check my email a lot.

GSC 103 R, Tuesday/Thursday, 14:00-15:15 - Evolution of the Modern Earth’s Environment

so in my geology class…it’s just like the greatest possible amalgamation of useless dregs. these are the scholars of the university of miami, and the half that don’t ooze stubborn pretentiousness/abercrombie-hollister-american eagle “vintage”-ness look decidedly homeless, complete with mildly dreaded hair and ratty clothing. read some more issues i’m having with that class here.

POL 500 SX, Tuesday, 15:30-18:10 - Ideals & Realities: Bioethics, Religion & Politics

I give up. I wanna fucking graduate already. only 112 days, 20 hours and 45 minutes to go…

according to this, the world’s most influential languages are english, french, spanish, russian, arabic, chinese, german, japanese, portuguese, and hindi. maybe in that year that i’m taking off, i will learn a bit more of the first three and possible pick up another one of the bunch.