how could you not believe?
i’m not the sort of person who believes in luck, or good fortune, or coincidence, or any of the “little bits of magic” responsible for the pleasant things that happen to us on any given day. that being said, i’m also a believer in God, and in everything having a purpose and a reason for existing. yesterday, i had the sort of afternoon that really strengthens such belief.
after spending some long-overdue time visiting with a friend of mine (who is also moving to gainesville in august), i came home only to be met with that most stressful of beast, Money Issues™. sallie mae, that bane of everyone’s existence, gave me a prerecorded call to gently remind to get my shit together. i’ve been really avoiding them and hoping that they would just go away and let me be since may, but i knew i had to deal with them eventually. part of why i’d been making the poor decision to close my eyes and run from the room is because, as the date looms closer and closer, i’ve begun to note how expensive it can be to move, even if it’s only 300 miles from my house.
in any event, i got on the horn with them, and then just paid them. immediately after i hung up, i began to panic, not knowing how and when i would be able to make up that money. i had created a very strict budget so that every thing would work out in spades, and to be totally honest, i really did not factor in sallie mae. so, soon after my anxiety attack set in, my mom asked me what i was going to do with my car (that doesn’t really move from our front drive). after thanking her for the idea, i called a number, and a guy in a pickup truck showed up an hour later and handed me cash for my car, enough to cancel out the sallie mae transaction.
i sat down to readjust my budget, again, when i on a lark decided to go to my web hosting website, hostmonster. that was another part of my budget. i expected the bill to be a couple of hundred dollars, but realized that i could renew for a shorter time, and could spend much less money until i had more cash-on-hand. finally, after all that, i called my apartment complex in gainesville to check and see what my rent was supposed to be, since i have no kind of memory whatsoever…only to discover that my rent is actually $250 less than i thought it would be for the first month, because of a dumb argument that i let my mother win about two months ago (that’s a much longer story than anyone has time for).
all of this adds up, not to coincidence or serendipity, nor to karmic vibrations moving about in my favor, nor to the arbitrary dialectics of my horoscope for the day. as far as i am concerned, none of that means anything at all. i have someone who looks out for me, and who exists above the realm of human understanding. the random grace that comes our way has a source, and that source is why we’re here. today is a good day, because i have a greater appreciation for God than i have in some time.